Being a Hospital Doula: My Greatest Challenge

Sometimes I can only bear witness. I am helpless to ward off the blow. I educate. I put a "game plan" in place. I manage. I guide. I manipulate the system. I encourage. I remind women they have a voice; they have a choice. But in the end sometimes I am powerless to protect. My role is to stand and bear witness to the birth unfolding before my eyes. My heart breaks; little pieces crumbling away. Bits of me I will never get back. Moments in my life I will never forget. I hold on to the belief, for her and for me, that grief is transformational if we let it be.